seventeen.

mmmmm <3 alright so i wake up at freaking 5:53 yesterday crying because i was so excited. i was going to meet kyle. i go to school and i'm just counting down until i get to meet kyle. then the last bell rings and i was free. i ran to skell's bus and we went to her house to get ready. tomtom is sew qt btw. anyway so i'm excited because this'll be my first time getting tropical smoothie aswell as seeing ftsk. so her qt mommie gives her 20 bucks and we walk to TS. so we get there we order but when da skell goes to get her money....she can't find it. so we just kinda... walked out and back home. lol. the guys was prolly like.. wtf. okay so then we go home, do our hair and shizz and head out. we get there to meet up with torilla, pickle, and beanie and these other people i honestly don't remember. so we go in blah blah blah people are playing music but tbh i was outside the whole time looking for kyle with these drum stix in my hands for him that da skell bought. skell skell left me so i was looking for her inside. i found her, started walking inside...when i see platnium blonde hair sticking up...everywhere. i floored it and turned the other way. i was dying. i squeezed da skell so tight. (sry bby.) and then she effin pushed me closer to him and i was just like WTF?! NO DNW TO TALK TO HIM WHEN FAT CHICKS ARE TALKING TO HIM. so then he freaking disappears and i start to cry. i'm such a fag. time passes, same old. i see caylubbbbb <3 he's qt. ummm so we're outside and tortilla goes,"KARINA. STAND UP NOW." and i shoot up knowing that she sees kyle and i'm like YESSSSSSSSSSSSS. so i call his name, we have a tiny exchange of words and he takes my drum stix (THATSKELLBOUGHT) and says he'll play with them. which he did. so after that, i start shaking and crying silently to myself. this is the first time i ever said hi to kyle.

so ftsk finally gets on and me and some kewwwlll K1DD55 make a big dance pit. we're dancing away (by dancing i mean beating the shit out of each other in a nice wayy) they played my favorite song and i died. the way she moves. <3 so the songs went on and then at the very end i fall and some ASSSHAT stomps on my head, so because i felt like i was going to die, i got water and i went to find kyle with da skell in hand. we searched and searched but he was on his van and not coming out. my heart seriously broke, but i was NOT going to be annoying so i didn't go knocking on the freakin' windows like the other girls near us. CAYLUBB IS TOO QT TO LOOK AT THEIR UGLY FACES. so we're waiting for them to come out and i'm praying that mike doesn't come before i really meet kyle. now readers... i wish i could say to you that i met kyle and my life is amazing, but i can't. i'm still greatful that i got to speak to him, one day i'll be able to hug kyle and speak with him. one day. but a big thanks to tor for telling me to stand up and look at kyle. thanks to cat laura and tracy for giving me the courage to speak to him. tracy (skell<.3) for letting me give him the drum stix and biggest thanks to ftsk for making my night amazing and playing my favorite song <3

sixteen.

OH MY GOD TOMORROW MY LOVE. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW. TOMORROW.


WTF I'M LEGIT GOING TO HAVE A PANIC ATTACK. I LOVE YOU BABY! KYLE I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET YOU. AND IF I DON'T MEET YOU I WILL POSSIBLY DIE. HONESTLY. I THINK I MIGHT COMMIT SUICIDE IF I DON'T MEET YOU.


okay enuff of me being a crazy~ today was good <3 28 mins a period? i could do that forever.

fifteen.

cleek to make biggerrr. yes i made it, i'm bored. those are lyrics from Dead Poetic <3 Glass in The Trees. just found out what the song was about and i cried. so sad. "The song is about a very, very close friend of ours who died in a car accident. The crash site was so horrible, the windshield was embedded into 2 trees. The song is about my relationship with him, and the regrets of choices I had made." quote from DP themselves.

so anyway...this morning i woke up and couldn't breathe. the doctor couldn't take us so we just went to the hospital clinic thing. they put a tube down my throat so i could breathe but it's all good. just a bad case of strep. the tube is gone and i'll be back i school tomorrow (: tomorrow should be nice though, shortened periods, assembly, long period of creative writing <3 and then thursday FTSK!!!!!!!!1111!!!111! yes, i'm still going. nothing can keep me from kyle. :3 so now i'm home reading and writing. lol my life. when i have a 'day off' i still love to just read and make stories.

fourteen.

hahahahahahahahahaha i was looking through lolcats ad i found this. beanie is a kiddy!? oh nooooezzzz! uhmmm, might be shopping wiff my mama today. it was freaking hot today, i really hate being hot in school. it's the aboslute worst.

i must look like a complete idiot because i have to litteraly punch the 'n' button and the space bar to get them to work. i probably look like a crazy person. and i mean more crazy than i already am (: so all week i've been blasting FTSK and like the only 4 wtk songs that i like. (1.don'tspeakliar. 2.skywayavenue. 3.secretvalentine. 4.checkyesjuliet.) yeah i love those songs. also been listening to mercy mercedes... i don't really enjoy them as of now. we'll seee d: so ftsk is unharmed even with the events of philly. i pray that chris v. is heading toward a speedy recovery. <3

thirteen,

oh look how incredibly white i is >.> anyway. great day <3 it was hot as hell -.- but that meas SUMMER IS COMING!!!!!! FTSK SOON. MYLIFE <3

twelve.

paul griffiths is really freaking hot... so i put him up here in all his glory. <3 anyway, yesterday was pretty qt :3 mike, tracy, fun times. then after i hung out with my mom and got two books!!! <3333 i miss reading so this will be fun. OMG KYLE IN FIVE DAYS! SJHGASKNAHSGCHASBDJASHDASGVDJSAGDHJGSAJDGHASDUHAS !!!111!!!!1111111.

eleven.

i love my best friends. i really really do. tonight was so much fun <3 washed my hair, died a little bit inside, because i was laughing so hard. SIX DAYS. SIX SIX SIX SIX. MY LOVE. <33333333

ten.

i thought i'd grace you all with a picture of my beloved ollie. today was boring. listened to my iPod and read all day. that's really not good :/ i should pay attention. so i'm going to try and finish up the book tonight so i don't read it in school. yeah that sounds like a plan. ollie looks like an old man xDDD but beside the point. i really hope my mom lets me go to the settle the sky show tomorrow <3 -crosses fingers- that would be the best.

nine.

ahhh the storm has pass and everything has fallen back into place. :3

eight.

none of us want drama, well i know i certainly don't. my emotions get the best of me and i really just go on a rampage. i don't want to be the drama in anyone's life, so i'm super sorry. i'm trying this thing where i try not to hate people (by people i mean people i see in the hall way that i just want to punch in the face. like fat whores and people who talk about their secrets really loud in the hallway and then ask why everyone knows their business. >:O) it's so hard but i'm gonna try. i know you read this so listen up (: take this anyway you want but i'm sorry if you think that i am judging you or whatever but i really wasn't, i'm not trying to mess up your life or taint it in anyway. it just caught me by surprise and i acted on instinct, so i'm sorry. like irl ): still love you.

and i just really want peace. so anyone i have ever harmed in anyway, i'm so sorry. let's start over okay?

hai i'm karina and i'd like to be your bessfrand.

seven.

o·pin·ion·at·ed adj Holding stubbornly and often unreasonably to one's own opinions.

hmm, let's see world. am i opinionated. i think not. do i have opinions? yup. and my opinions are never unreasonable. yeah i might be stubborn, but i have an open mind that gets me in trouble sometimes. yes i hold true to my opinions but if someone comes around and they want to change my opinion i listen, take in their input, but sometimes(most of the time) the person's reason is unreasonable. like if you smoke. why? can you answer me with a good reason that makes sense and unselfish? and if you want to have an abortion. why? because you just don't want the responsibilities of being a parent? because your mom would kill you? those reasons are selfish and illegitimate. if it's because you don't want the baby to grow up to have a horrible life, or you got raped... THAT'S a good reason. or something simple enough, if you like a band. why? is it because you genuinely like their music? do you like their faces? and then when i give my opinions, my likes or dislikes people fight me on them. i state my reasonable reasons as to the way i live. people just don't accept that. even though i am completely fine with having different opinions. and i'm non-accepting and judgmental?

can we just agree to disagree?
it's a sad thing.

i don't judge people, i just simply think most people are stupid, or acting stupid. for this exact reason. every person i have ever met, with exceptions of some people, are like every one else regardless of what they seem. i thought i finally found some unique people, i was wrong. no i don't mean that type of uniqueness that doesn't exist. the type that says, "I COPY NO ONE AND TAKE NOTHING FROM NO ONE." that is impossible. there is nothing new in the world, you can't be unique like that. i mean the type of uniqueness that sets you apart from the others. the worst part is that i care about them all and it kills me inside to see people i call my friends making stupid decisions and i can't say anything without being "OPINIONATED" or "JUDGING" really? sorry i care about your well being. sorry that it hurts me to see you get hurt. sorry for trying to be a good friend. honestly the people who are opinionated are them. they listen to nothing but themselves or people who share the same opinions as them. they shut you off only ready to defend, never ready to receive.

come on, come on give it a chance
and i guess i might be the only one to get it done.

five and six.

OKAY. warning, this will be long. because i'm combining saturday and today into one post. to make it even. that two.point five threw me off, and now it'll be back to even. alright so saturday i am summoned to get ready before 11 by mike and i'm like... wtf. so i get in his car and i'm like kay where we going? he puts a blindfold over my eyes and tells me to just wait. so i'm freaking out like WTF NO DNW THIS BLINDFOLD. but i end up falling asleep and waking up when we were there. he goes, babe get up we're here. so he's telling me to walk forward and i kept thinking he was going push me off some cliff or something. then i am told to cover my ears. now at this point i'm like, okay i'm going to die. he doesn't want to hurt my feelings by breaking up with me so he's just going to kill me, and then he picks me up, i freak out and after a couple of seconds i just accept the fact that i'm going to die. then he places me down, takes my hands off my ears and takes off the blind fold. the first thing i see is the crashing aves of the ocean and my heart drops. he brought me to the beach. God i love him. then we had an amazing day at the beach and i'm so happy. after that i go home, get ready for kirsten's party, imari comes over, we go to the party. have fun, and then imari sleeps over.

Now for sunday. <3 oh God today, so sparatic and full of amazment.

alright so me and imari go to church and i go to her church after. she had been talking to maverick from settlethesky and he told us that the show had been moved. honestly we weren't planning to go, but we had been getting close to mav so we wanted to go see him, but my mom told me i couldn't go to the show. eff that. i went anyway. and the show was the most intamite show i've ever been to. we hung out with sts the whole time. along with kids from the crimson armada and i am abomonation. sew qt. when sts went on me and imari got to go on stage and sing along, good time. they're such great people. hahaha did i mention that the venue was so incredibly small and there were only like 30 people there? it was great. btw i haven't been to a concert in like 5 months so i was dying, i missed the ringing in my ears and sore body of the afterward. most fun concert i've had so far. most interactive and personal. now let's just hope i get that personal with kyle in 11 days (;

`we will stand on solid ground.

four.

haha tonight was super fun, itt(ithinkthat) we should do this moar often. da skellskell came over, and we pm took the most ridiculous pictures i have ever see. oh really a lion with jungle ears? eff me. why can't i speak like a human being? but anyway. DID WANT TO GO TO A FREE SHOW )': but it's okay, because i get to see and meet the love of my life in 12 days. TWLEVE DAYS <3 that is going to be the second best day of my life. yes second. sorry kyle bby, but 2-7-09 is the best. :3 yeah i have my qt outfit and i'm going with uber fun peeps. da pickle. tortilla. and da skellskell. well yes, today was sew qt and fun. moar fun than i expected. 3 hours of cooking mama, AND da skellskell? WTF!? I'M SUPPOSED TO BE A HERMIT WITH NO FRIENDS! d:

three.

LAWL MY LIFE. this is my sister because i'm on her comuter, yeah she's a fagapotomus. BUT ANYWAY. didn't update yesterday, but i died my hair blonde <3 -not my whole head- YOU'LL SEE. I'M NOT A HAIR VIRGIN ANYMORE!!!!!!!! (: this is all.

two.pointfive.

mmm. so. yes this is my two point five. yeah it's worth it. parker is here now and i'm beyond happy. -yes.. he's reading over my shoulder, hai parrrkkkk.- but anyway, so. michael joseph korb is my boyfriend, obvsly, and i wouldn't have anyone else. i call him parker because... well... it's a long storry. speaking of long stories.. this post MIGHT be a tad bit long. we have one of the best relationships in the world, imo. honestly i'm not usually the type of girl to be like, OMG I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND, I'M OBSESSED, I NEED TO BE WITH HIM ALL THE TIME, LET ME WRITE A WHOLE THING THAT I REALLY DON'T MEAN BECAUSE I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT LOVE IS. nope. that's not me. i've always known that love is a deeper emotion than just a crush. the feeling i have for mike isn't just a crush, i can honestly say i'm in love with him. we have everything in common, and we always have the best times together, not even when were doing anything. like right now, he's eating all my cookie dough ice cream and watching cheaters. i can act so stupid and not worry about how gross i look around him, and i love that. he's the funniest, cutest, best thing that has ever happened to me.. beside God. ugh now i'm rambling... i love him. da end. :3


edit by mike: Okedoke so basically Rae(Babybear/Karina) is the best damn thing that has ever happen to me ever. I love her with everything I've got I would do anything for her. It's amazing because when we first met I was just a quite kid and we never really talked and I never thought we would end up talking but i always thought she was hella cute everytime i saw her with her friend then one day we were walking down the hall to my locker and we started talking about our music tastes and I didn't want to screw anything up cause she's hella cute and iunno I dont think very highly of myself but we talked and I learned we have the same music taste and it was so awesome to talk to someone about my passion and she would know what i was talking about. Anyways after school she asked for my number and she told me she was going to "text rape me" and of course i was all =] (butterflies) so i gave her my number and we started talking non stop. So we hung out at her house for the first time and I helped her rake leaves and i was mad attracted to her i thought she was the funniest most beautiful girl I've ever met (cheeseball) but from then on we started hanging out more and more and we hung out after school one day at this tire that is no longer there because construction workers are bungholes. Anyway we were sitting there and i told her to close her eyes and i kissed her for the first time and that spot has always been our spot and it still is to this day and will always be. She has shown me God and im am so grateful to have God in my life everything has gotten so much better and without God there wouldn't be real love in the relationship we have together. I love my babybear so much and she knows and if she doesnt she's going to know now im pretty sure she does though but babybear im always going to be here for you through all the struggles your going through and im always gonna be someone you can talk to about anything you need to vent about i love listening to you and i love helping you out and making you smile because your smile can brighten my day no matter how bad it is just by seeing you smile i get a warm feeling in my heart and it makes me smile. Still to this day I get butterflies when I'm with you and i still feel the warm feeling in my heart when im near you or just thinking about you i love you so much and i hope to God we last forever because your face is the face I want to wake up to every morning and the last i see before i go to sleep and I see myself spening the rest of my life with you foever. I love you<3.


P.S.
Boats&hoes.

editbykarina- i lose. and HOW DAARE HE RAPE MY BLOG.

two.

okay, so today was gt's. the picture above shows how much i love da skell skell and how much i get accomplished in spanish class d: but anway good day in general. i gotz two whitechapel merch items from the show i didn't attend last night. many people kept asking why i wasn't at the show last night so i was content. oh and by the way, i have the best boyfriend ever. he bought me the comfiest sweatshirt ever, and the shirt?! well it was mad br00t d: never again.

OKAY. SO I'M SUPER EXCITED THAT IN 2 WEEKS AND 1 DAY I WILL BE FACE TO FACE WITH KYLE BURNS AND RAAAWR! well not face to face because he's like 6'3... and i'm borderline 4'11 :/ BUT ANYWAY... i can't wait. END.

one.

alright, i decided to get one of these because well, i really feel like i have no one to talk to sometimes. well i do, but it feels good to let it all out and not feel like i'm being annoying. alright well i guess i'm pretty pissed right now. nothing has gone right today.
`first. i go to school pissed because my phone is already dying.
`second. i really want to go to the white chapel show today with my boyfriend. but no, he's going with his ex. STORYBEHINDTHISYOUASK? surely. when boyface was hanging out with fatass(ex) he got tickets to whitechapel without even telling me he was going to get tickets with her. HELLO? DO I NOT EXIST? DO WE NOT TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH WE BOTH LOVE WHITECHAPEL?! i know, i shouldn't be bitching, but sue me i was kinda hurt. anyway so he's out with her tonight and not me.
`third. i feel like i have no real friends at my school. sure i have funny friends that i laugh with but... they've already established their friendships and i just know that i shouldn't interfere. :/
`fourth. i was all excited to go to youthgroup tonight. -it was the only thing letting me get through the day- and now i find out my ride can't make it. great. :|
`fifth. oh you'll get a kick out of this one. on the ride home i'm listening to The Sleeping peacefully and then BOOM peace is interrupted by a little retard bus ramming into the back of my bus. so we have to wait outside the bus for an hour in the rain and cold. it sucked.
`sixth. this one kinda has to do with the whole me not having a ride to youth group. my parents are being really lazy and not driving me to youth group, or even just picking me up. even though they haven't done anything to get me there in forever. grr.

alright... well today was freaking suckish, and imari just left which sucks a lot. ugh sorry for having this ME SO EMOOO moment here even though i'm pretty sure no one is going to read this d: